i HATE to admit it...but i MISSED you... ;(

21 jan, 6.12pm

it has been 2 days since we broke up.(for real this time).and yes, i hate to admit it..but im starting to miss u..but i cant just take back my words..and the things that i've said to you..maybe u were right..mayb ape yg i buat ni keputusan yg btol.
just admit it, dr awl lg kite mmg xserasi..jauh panggang dari api..u r way too different with me.. im the outgoing person, n u're such a control freak..i should've realized it from the beginning..but i was too blind to see what was coming.. =(
i tau i xckp mnde ni dpn2 u, or even in msg..juz dlm blog je i braney..maybe sbb i tau u xkn pnh bukak n bace blog i..=)
what i wanted to say is, despite all the arguments, yelling and cursing, i feel happy n lucky coz i met u,coz u had brighten up my days..n scare xlangsung, u teach me how to be gentle n sensitive with other's feeling..thx alot for that..really appreciate it.
even with ur stupid jokes yg kdg2 xmnjadi,tp sbbkn kesian i gelak jugak..thx 4 that too..hahaaa...
besusah payah u nk wat lawak2 ngokngek nk bg i happy..
wish we could heal all the bad memories and just stay happy forever..unfortunately things are not that easy...mnde dah jd xley tarik balik..n i bkn jenis yg sng2 bole lupekn certain things, things yg u da wat i ilang trust dkt u..im sorry but that is just the way i am..
kite same2 mengongkong dgn tahap dewa punye terok..somi istri pon xde kene cntrol seterok kite i rase..hahaaa...tu lah..org ckp, becinte bagai nk rak sgt pon xbole..kang lame2 makin terok jd nye..n look what happened..it has already turn bad..padan muke dri sndri..hahaha
yang penting, i just want to thank u for everything.. n hope u will have a very2 good life ahead.. n cube kurang2kn menipoo tu, so xde la org tpoo u balik..mcm yg i buat..=)
if ade jodoh, insyallah kite jupe lg..if xde, i doakn kejayaan u, n kebahagiaan u..may God bless u..

p/s: i know u think that i have move on with my life..believe me..i CAN'T. its not easy to move on when u're still in love with the person who actually broke ur heart many times... ;(
thx 4 ur love syg...