should we END this?? part of me say YES..part of me say NO.

4.59pm
it has been a year and 4 mnth u and me..but the condition is getting worse and no sign of progession..
makin ari,makin jauh..ade je mnde xkene..and ade je isu yg nk dibangkitkn..
are we actually bored with this relationship?or we just had enough with all the nonsense rules that you've put out.coz i dont think we gonna make it if we cant tolerate n keep controlling each other like some kind of puppet..i am human being, still in the process of growing and knowing life..but when im with you, i have to gave up many things,,and missed out all the fun,the sadness, and other things..coz im too bz playing by your rules and just follow your stupid way of having a relationship!
i need to be free..jiwa i mmg jiwa bebas..i dont like to be controlled like this..i told you from the beginning of our relationship, but still..u ignore my needs. and so i try to live by your rules..and now, as u can see, im getting worse..i cant stand it anymore..1year plus is enough for me..please, you have to learn trust people and be trusted...
i almost brake up with u few days back..but i cant, because im too depending on you..but now, not anymore..i've learn to live by my own, and i think i can handle it pretty well..when someone is there to help me to go thru this whole alone time..thx. :)
maybe that's just what i need, a companion..not new replace or anything..juz a companion that can fill my day with laughter and make me happy..that's all..i dont need to be worried sick about u anymore, about where u're going, what u're doing, who r u flirting with this time...i am now worry-free...;)
so, my mind has decide that if, this last chance that i gave you, since u cheated on me previous time,you ruined it, no more chance for you dear..that will be it..coz once u cheated on me, you wont stop..juz like how u said u would stop smoking,kejap je benti de..pastu wat balik...KAN??
so, that's it..im juz waiting 4 u to make the wrong move and i will call it quit..
it is not worth it to be this dumb for a guy that cant even keep his little promise to his girl..like to quit smoking, stop wasting your money on phones, and other things that u've promised me..what i can see, u're still do does thing that you said you wouldnt do anymore..
so, from there, i can see what kind of man are you..and yes..i hate it when u keep staring at other girls when im beside you..as if im nt there..cmon lah..ingat i bute ke xnmpk..i know u cover2 when u see im looking at you, but still..i wasnt born yesterday ok..

so, lets just hope you dont screw up for the how many times,*i dont know coz i dont keep track*
coz then, i will screw you.. :)
THE END