Obsession

The shortest tragic. 

Intuition or paranoia?

But somehow I feel you're getting more and more distant. Is it just me?

Little Big Red Heart

I'm reminiscing our earlier times. Despite the storm and thunder, all I see was beautiful sweet moments we had. Everything. From phili island, weekly food hunt around KL, almost daily gymming, the cooking experiment, working on business proposal, best sheysha hunt, the cheat days, daily lift ride. Then we went for short trip to places, then you had to leave. I came to you. I remember the first time I came, as soon as i see you waiting with that big red heart of yours *i'm sorry i lost it :( *, i just cant stop smiling. I was blushing, nervous, excited. It felt like im meeting you for the first time. It was like a happy ending to our long distance journey. And i just love seeing the smile on your face when you saw me. 

Now, it feels like a normal thing to see you waiting at the other side of the gate (with a cuter little red heart!). But the smile will never fade. 

I'm looking forward to more smiles with you in the future G. 😘😊😊😊

With Love,

Capturing feelings in Kodak.

Have you ever looked at a picture and it triggers certain feeling? The feeling you had when the picture was taken. When your mind brings you back to that exact moment. You can almost feel the realness of the moment. You remember exactly the atmosphere, the people you're with, the things you talked about, the food you ate, the places you went before getting there, the places you go afterwards, how the night ends, and most importantly the feeling you had at that moment that will just make you smile, or cry or laugh or mad, or just silently inside you, without showing any obvious sign on your face, your heart smiles and be all warm and affectionate.

I am sorry.

"... Im stepping above my pride, my ego, my own limit. A time to be a little selfish, and seize my chance. Im using my chance to give you another chance with whatever strength i have left. If God is forgiving and His messenger is forgiving. A step above being an ordinary man, above pride, above ego, above my anger and despair. There's love. This is my conviction. Pure love for you. Love above all else. Although this hurts like hell, but not having us together will hurt a million times more than i could imagine. And you will answer this for me. Answer this for me..."

                         

                                                               

I'm sorry we didn't happen. Please accept my sincere apology if you happen to read this in the future. You're a good person, good by heart. Don't destroy yourself. Be good to others. Don't let my mistake ruins others' chance to get to know you, to love you, to be The One for you. I sincerely hope the best things in life for you, because you deserve it. May God bless you. 

Take a shot for me (Drake)

God really knows how to make your life worth living. It's definitely not the destination, but the journey was all that matters. 

What am i? What's my purpose in life? Im still lost, im clueless.

Im troubled. Help me.

I'll take a shot for you. 

Im sorry.

Thank You

Honestly, i don't know why you are still here. 

I gave all sorts of reasons for you to leave and yet you're here, committing your life to this loud, lifeless, bipolar, indecisive, cold-hearted, hard-headed, and the most rebellious woman on the planet. 

I've known you for almost 4 years now, and one thing I'm certain about you is, you always..always choose the best thing in life. Your ability to make sense out of everything, your ridiculously-accurate-logical-thinking, your forever calmness, and most importantly, your beatiful mind and heart. I can't seem to accept the fact that a beautifully designed creature inside and out like you would choose me. 

For all i know, I'm not the best thing in life and im not sure if i could ever be that for you. I'm keeping my feet on the ground at all times. Coz to me, this still feels like a dream. 

And for that, I thank you with all my heart for sticking around. And I'm sorry if i ever screwed things up, intentionally or unintentionally. 

Always and forever,