Rebellious me

Don't expect me to smile doing things.which I weren't supposed to do.
Ask me nicely, not by forced. No matter how old you are, how high your rank is, nothing can change my willingness except for god. If I hate it, I hate it.

But then again, who am I to complain.

Dare to complain only and only when....

Sometimes. we see people complaining about their lives. Not good enough, not free enough, not happy enough, not rich enough, not loved enough. What is there to complaint? The only reason you complain is because you know its your own failure to achieve what's truly meant to be yours. You can do better if you put your mind up to it. If you're still not achieving your goal, it means you haven't give your 100% yet. In life, you're in control of your own fate. Stop procrastinate, stop giving excuses, quit slacking, start making things happen. If you want love, go find it. If you want to be wealthy, work your ass off, grab any opportunities that come and never second thought your choice and never look back. If you think you've made the wrong decision, fix it. Change, improvise, anything that you can do under your power to make things go as the way you want it. Don't just sit and do nothing while complaining your life is not exciting enough, not happy enough, not good enough. Start making changes, start putting rules in your life, stick to your principles. With discipline as your guard, I can assure you, everything is achievable. Remember this. YOU ARE YOUR OWN BOSS. 

C'mon naqyah. you're better than this. Start looking.

Job Satisfaction

Tell me, what does job satisfaction mean to you? Is it the pay? environment? benefit? power? or simply the satisfaction of getting one very challenging task done?

This, my friend is how i define Job Satisfaction and what is my level of satisfaction currently at this new place.

Job satisfaction for me is when i get to go back on time, with daily task completed before 6, ad-hoc job is not as much as planned audit presented at the beginning of the year, and all audit planned executed and completed right on schedule. When i get to wake up everyday without complaining about going to work, facing my superior, dealing with other people nuisance. when i have a comfortable work environment, nosy colleague-free, gossip-free, scandal-free. Solely occupied by working people with working intention. no funny business whatsoever. Only Work.

But, it'll give more satisfaction if  I've been given with challenging task. Provided that guidance is there, and able to complete the task and learn something new out of it and applicable for future tasks. But nothing beats the mother of all satisfaction when u have all the above added with power and handsome reward. Damn. If only life's that easy.

Luckily for me, this new place, i have less, waay less task compare to my previous job. Too relax i may say. There's no challenge or anything. I know it's not beneficial for me in terms of knowledge-searching or experience-gaining. But it gives me less stress, which is good and not to forget its ridiculously-near-my-house location. *10-15 minutes driving-in-jam distance* Who doesn't want that? 

Sometimes it gets boring when u don't have anything to do and do not know what to do and just play "looking busy" mode. Speak of the devil. Kerja baru sampai. huahuahuahua.. ok gtg people!  

Ouh come on!

and i saw these gorgeous hot pants, dresses, skirts, pumps, arrghhh!!! stresss! i wanna go for a shopping spreeee!!!

I know the money I'm about to get is for educational purpose only, but i can't help it..it's like all the shops calling my name~ "Come Naqyah, come. Have a look. You don't have to buy..just,look." T_T

I almost cried at Nichii today for god sake!!! What the hell is wrong with you Naqyah??!! They're sooo gorgeous, but i know i don't have the money to take these lovely, beautiful and simply tempting dresses, pants and blouse home with me. Damn!

I'm sorry scholar, but once you're in my account, I'm gonna handle you GOOOD~ Come to mama baby!! XD

p/s: cpt la masok oi!!!!!!

Dear stalker,

Oi2. jgn la stalk ak lagi da..
Im not with him anymore..cukup2 r tue~ pih2 stalk org len pih..
syuh2..lol! XD

Munching!

24/7 mengunyahhhhhhhhhh jeeeeee.....
huh.. bahaya...bahaya....
I Have to stop!
(-_-)

Ini yang Nak MARAH ni!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!

geram gile!!
bek ak pg karaoke greenbox je dr pagi tadi taw x!!!
atleast hilang kemarok paramore!
isssyyyhhhh~!

Niat bgn pagi2 buta sbb nk pegi ke kelas. niat da mulia abis da nih.
Tapi dr semalam terasa macam nk g karak kt greenbox. nk lepaskn gian lalakan paramore.
Rase mcm nk je ponteng klas arini nk g karak, tp iman ku masih kuat. maka minda pon bekata2, "issh kalo dapat wat concert kt greenbox pon syok nih, tp xnk la. sian mak. pnat2 bg ak pki kete tok g klas, tibe2 ak melencung.ishh.xjadi2."

so dtg tepat 10.30 ni. Da sampai dpn pintu lecture hall, nampak minah2 'class tersendiri'(gelaran yg dberi pada kami oleh agen tongkang. HAHAHAHA!) melepak kt lua *budget sap kok lu~haha!* lalu macik enot berkata "klas kensel la weh, postpone esok. de br text td." so i said, "what the fuck?? penat ak bgn pg. da la smlm nye klas pagi pon kensel! hisyy." tapi xpe, hati cool lagi..ingat mak~ ingat mak~

and so tggu for da next class at 12pm. Tapi~ ok. ni ak ngaku mmg sala sndri, heheh. i tot the class kol 1. so dgn slambe badak air je lpak bilik mntelaah sambil menjalankn aktiviti harian stalk FB org until 12.30 when swee texted me. 'Dtg ke x, class IMC, kene discuss skt presentation' ak pon dengan gelabah ayam recheck my schedule. FUCK! klas kol 12 la naqyah gile! dah nk abes sem da pon, still xngat jadual. haih~ (-_-)

So ak rush to econs fac, pecot mcm F1 driver pg fac seblah *seblah je pon fac eco, tp ngade nk nek kete gak.hehe* Sampai, ak berlari2 anak dgn bj kurung, bajet cite mlayu la lari2 anak kt tepi pantai?haha. Tibe2 ak nmpk amoi 2 org dr group ak tu da tetonggok kt tepi tangga. "lecturer xmasok la, sume da balik". again. FUCK!!! haaiiiiiihhhhh.penat dow ak lari!!! hilang ayu aku pakai bj kurung tau x!! Pastu de pulak bole pokpek2 pasal ass nk cepat la, bile nk submit la...aiii...naseb ak baek, kalo x mmg da kene tenyeh2 minah tu. da lah de yg gelabah2 suro dtg, tibe2 klas xde. huh! Sabar je la Naqyah oi~

so, today out of 3 classes, 2 da cancel. alang2 asal xcancel kn je klas ptg ni jgk? kaki ni da rengan sgt dah nk balik. wat bazer minyak, toll, and masa ak je. Taw ak pg karaoke pagi2 td!!!!! sob3.
(T_T)

-Naqyah tengah Lapar akibat Geram melampau-

Tolong Study!

STUDY naqyah! ak sepak kang!!?? FOCUS!!!please FOCUS!!!!
Damn u FB, u ruined my student life! ngok, ngek, benci. damn u jeu*xbole spell btol nnt kene detect ngn Jeuish ppl, kene tembak jarak jauh.Bahaya.* for creating Fb. Membuatkn ak jd malas tahap semesta alam. My Dear SEMANGAT STUDY, where are you? i desperately neeeeeeeeeedddd you right now. Datang laaaa.datang laaa.datang laaaaaaa.*terapi seru semangat*

worse comes to worst, I'll DEACTIVATE ACC trus!! but it'll be like, killing myself from inside? boleh? Nak try wat record br, xon9 selama seminggu.mampukah??? I DON'T THINK SOO!

cacat dah aku ni, pengaruh iluminati byk sgt brgkali.

OK. shut down. dead. gone. weng.

If you have problem with me, Come and confront me like a real man, instead of bitching people on your status, A*Hole.

Correct me if im wrong, but if you DO have problem with me being close to your BEST FRIEND, be a gentleman, tell it to my face. don't go publicly bitching people as if u're sooo great, famous and all. Please, u're only a KG boy from nowhere trying to act like city boi. pfft.

And let me make things clear for you,1st; im not the one chasing him back. He approached me 1st.
2nd: i told him yeaaarrrrssss ago, just let it go. don't hold ur feelings. and don't put hopes on me coz i will never ever get back with him coz the only feeling i have for him is, love for a friend. Not more, not less. I've told him tooo many times. and even so, he just can't get enough of me. I'm trying to be nice by not ignoring him. and you should know better, if he told you the truth, you would know how many times we have discussed about this.

But maybe you look at it at the wrong perspective. I'm not trying to give him hopes or anything. I AM JUST TRYING TO BE NICE AS A FRIEND. It's never my intention to played him or gave him false hope. Yes, we used to be in love, but ppl change, feelings change. Most of the time, ppl will MOVE ON. But in his CASE, he REFUSED to move on. So don't blame me for his own incapability and weakness.

So to YOU, seriously, if you don't like seeing me be friend with your BESTFRIEND again, just tell me, i won't bother him anymore. No need to be sarcastic. Sume da besar panjang. blaja tggi2, gune otak sket. OK?

pnt

nk kte.pnt.xlrt hari2 mcmni. lemau. bosan menunggu. boring, penat. mak. nk kte?

fuck! class at 8 am???

Fuck fuck fuck!!!!
not morning class!!
i fucking hate morning class.
10 am is early enough for me.
Now i have class at 8???????????????????
Shhhhhhiiiiit!!!

xkn nk kua uma pukul 6 kot??? gile keee???
huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.....xmo2
xbestttt


i need my sleep..
and i LOVE to SLEEP!!!
i don't wanna sacrifice my sleep because of some elective class!!
ggggrrrrr.


take a deep breath naqyah....
huuuuuhhhhhhhhh
I need to find solution for this. FAST.

OK,
1st choice. wake up at 6, take the bus to kl cntrl. fuck.
2nd choice. sleep at fiza's house so i dont have to wake up early. not going to happen. Im not comfortable staying there. and i dont want to be the 'penyemak'.

So,
The best choice is to take the bus to kl cntral and wake up at SIX FREAKIN IN THE MORNING!!!

sometimes u have to sacrifice something in life.
and there goes My BEAUTY SLEEP. (-_-) FUCK!

Do Not Exploit ME!!!

eeeee...getting tired day by day..asik keje3!! da mcm org suruhan plak!! pastu yg len balik, tau2 nk megarah ak itu ini..i know my work xla berat mn..tp kalo dr start ak celik mata, smpai mlm sume nk harapkn ak je yg nk wat mnde kt uma ni..superman pon bole resign awl taw x!

da la ak jenis, slagi keje xsiap xkn mkn..coz i know when im full, mule lah mate berat nk mapus..wat keje pon lembab mcm sipot, kompom mls nk smbg wat blik..last2 smpi mlm ak xmkn, xmndi..haisshhhhhh...bole cepat tua la ini macam!!

-i didnt get enough sleep
-too many chores to do in so little time
-what i hate the most, pnat2 ak kmas..esok uma tunggang langgang balik!

oi! bkn nye ade bdk2 kecik pon kt uma ni nk nyepahkn umahh..sume da besa pjg, da bole kawen, n da ad ank pon..xkn pinggan sndri xrety bsh??tpt tdo sndri xrety kmas?? kalo ak xkmas, pastu blik nk memekak kt ak; "naqyah ko ni duk uma satu hari suntuk xrety kms umah ke?" What The FUCK?? sume yg sepah2 tu korunk punye brg, korunk nye tpt,korunk punye sisa mknn. xrety bsh sndri ke?? tau la korunk keje..mak pon keje jgk.boleh je ak tgk mak msk dinner tok korunk?? xkn mnde2 kecik tu xrety nk wat sndri? abes tu kalo ak xde kt umah? kompom berulat satu umah..smph ak da kumpul pon xrety nk tlg buangkn..pinggan sndri?? lg harapan lah nk bsh kn??

kalo takat mak abh, ak xkesah..sbb dorunk da tua, mmg ptot pon ak wat..masaelahnye yg laen2 kudrat masing2 kuat2 lg...xkn keje sket pon xley wat?lembik ke? jantan2 kt umah ni? mcm xde jntn je..sume pemalas...hiiiissssyyyyyy...geram laaaa!!!! alih2 sume mnde ak yg kene wat..sume tuding kt ak..AKU! AKU! AKU! AKU!!

patot la ak sronok duduk kolej, blik umah sume wat ak mcm maid..
ak ni da dikire di eksploitasi da nih!!

and this saturday, my sis's wed..just great!! extra chores 4 me!! fuck.

im too exhausted to do more work..

fuck fuck fuck!
xmo,xbek mencarut.

astargfirullahhal'azim
astargfirullahhal'azim
astargfirullahhal'azim

Ya Allah, bg la ak kekuatan fizikal dan mental bg hari2 yg bakal mendatang..
biar eklas sket hati ni,n bukak kn sket hati and mata dorunk tu..supaya sdr tanggungjawab msg2..pliz3...

p/s: stop exploiting me!!!! ggrrrr