Dear Me

I've read a book by J.K Rowling. She compiled all letters written by famous people to their 16 y/o self. It's inspiring. In a way of asking you to reflect your life decision and your life as a whole up to this point. So here goes :)

Dear young Self,

You're probably sound asleep in your dorm with your handphone stucked between your crotch right now. Waiting for it to vibrates. Vibrate from text alert tho or a call. You were as pure as bio-pure water filter back then. These are my advices to you. Listen. I know you're stubborn as hell, but just listen. And think about it when the times come:

1) please say no sometimes. It could save you from a lot of regrets and mistakes in the future. Trust me. This is the most crucial life skill you need to master from young. Don't worry about offending other people's feeling or afraid of getting stuck in an awkward post-rejection moment. Tbh, they're not even that offended when you say no. Man up!

2) your first love? Yeah it feels like heaven when you're in love. Just don't get too brokenhearted when you find out it's not as pure as you think. Trust me, this guy is nothing compared to what you'll be served with later in life ;)

3) stay open and friendly, you'll meet alot of great people and experience alot of great things, but be strict! Set your boundaries. Know how to differentiate people with good and bad intentions

4) Boys. Be picky! Don't just settle. Trust me, there are alot of good decent guys who'd die for you.

5) Flirt around, use your god given charms to just have fun and be more demanding rather than go with the flow. Take control once in awhile.

6) When you get to uni, please absorbed all the knowledge as much as possible. Be interested! Be hungry for knowledge!

7) The most important advice; you'll meet few really good men. Treat them well. Coz they deserved it. Don't break their hearts.

8) know what you want and dont be afraid to say it out loud and demand for it. Trust me, it'll make your life waaaaay easier.

9) Lastly, YOU have the power to choose. So choose wisely.

10) For the rest, you pretty much excel in everything you do. Keep that confidence, adventerous, spontaneious, curious george attitude, it'll get you to places 😉

Love,
27 y/o Q*- yes, you'll be known by your recently-invented-nickname-thanks-to-your-favourite-english-teacher more than your real name. Deal with it.

Where's your spark?

In limbo. Nothing is moving. What have I achieved so far?

Redirecting Pattern

Let's switch things up a little bit.

Aku Berserah KepadaMu..

Tak ku mampu melawan takdirMu.

Tak ku mampu mencipta kebahagianku

Tak ku mampu menenangkan hati ini

Tak ku mampu berdiri sendiri

Tak ku mampu bergerak sendiri

Aku lemah. Teramat sangat lemah.

Langkah yang di rancang bercanggah

Dari destinasi yang di cari.

Ku tak mampu berdiri sendiri

Terlalu banyak cabaran, walaupun ada selitan ganjaran

Aku terlalu angkuh, terlalu taksub dengan dunia, dengan manusia, dengan cinta.

Aku lemah, sangat lemah.

Ku inginkan cinta, tapi bukan cintaMu.

Ku inginkan kebahagiann tapi bukan dariMu

Aku mengalah. Aku berserah.

Aku terlalu lemah. Teramat sangat lemah.

Bantulah aku.

Pinjamkan kekuatanMu

KetekalanMu

KetenanganMu

KebahagianMu

KecekalanMu

KejayaanMu

Bimbinglah aku.

Bimbinglah sekalian di sekelilingku.

Lindungilah aku. Lindungilah aku. Lindungilah aku

Bimbinglah hatiku, emosiku, fikiranku, rohku.

Maafkanku.

Aku tenggelam.

Aku hilang arah.

Aku hilang.

Kau hilang dariku.

Kembalilah. Kembalikan semangatMu.

Kembalikan kesucianMu

Kembalikan kasih sayangMu.

Kembalikan petunjukMu

Kembalikan kebahagianMu

Kembalikan ketenanganMu

Aku lemah, teramat sangat lemah.

Selamatkanku.

Aku mengalah. Aku berserah.


-N.R-

Time...

It's been a year. Officially.

Experienced so many.

I want to write more. I really do.

But my mind doesn't let me. Not yet.

A wicked mind.

Being selfless long enough , and got crushed by the inhumanly human race in return. You'll see yourself developed a wicked mind. Worst part is, it became part of you. Permanently a cold heartless wicked human being. HUMAN CAN'T CHANGE their true nature. They just got better at suppressing it.

                                                       

Know what you want.

Visualize and pursue

Dear God,

God, 

Guide me to the right path. Please. Strengthen my heart, my soul, my iman. 

God,

Protect me from harm, protect me from myself. Protect me from destroying my true purpose in this life and the after life. 

God,

Lend me strength, lend me compassion, lend me purity. 

God, 

Bring me close to you, bring people who are close to me even closer to you. Bring all of us closer to you.

God,

Keep me away from all negativity of the surrounding, of the world, of the people. 

God,

Teach me, guide me, show me the way to love you.

God, 

Protect me from everything that could lead me astray, from your guidance.

God,

Peliharalah dia, peliharalah kami. 

God, 

Help us. 

Battle of Life

May peace be upon you.

17th May 2015: 

Today marked the 9th day we're here at Medina & Mecca. Left with 2 more days to go. 

To be truly honest, i can't wait to go home. People always said, when they're here, they don't feel like going home, they want to stay here for as long as possible. Some even considering settling down here.  Why don't i? Only god knows.

Why am i here?

1) God wants me here

2) Was instructed to "cleanse" my soul.

3) So that i'll change to what THEY want me to be, and THEY can be HAPPY with themselves. Because they know what is right and what is wrong for ME, MY LIFE. I'm not good enough for them, for the society. No i'm not.

Why am i here? Really?

1) God wants me here

2) To fulfill their "instruction". 

3) So that i can ask for MY HAPPINESS, a better life, a better perspective, a better self inside and out. Not to make them happy. To make me happy and satisifed with myself, with what i've become and achieved. In return, could make others happy. Including THEM. But,i have to be fully-contempt with myself first. 

Mind the gap?

No one likes to be told how they should live their life. Indeed, we have our book of guidance as our general guideline to live our life, it is there to guide, to teach what's wrong and what's right. In the end, it's you who should have control over your own life and bare the consequences. 

I have alot of flaws and i'm fully aware of that. From the most obvious:

1) hardheaded / stubborn /coldhearted (depends with whom and situation)

2) easily influenced

3) indecisive

These are the top three which i could think of right now. 

But i'm also aware of my strength:

1) always always always try my best to stay true to myself (be sincere in everything i do or say)

2) determined 

3) when i do things i love, i do it passionately without giving a damn about the return or reward i might get (i take sincerity seriously)

4) Definitely Independent

Please undertsand the first point. Im trying to be as sincere and close to my heart in whatever i do. You're only pushing me away if you keep oppressing me and forcing me do things im not willing to.

I'm not broken, i'm not damaged and I'm certainly not possessed by any demon for god sake. I don't go around town causing troubles, ruin people's life or even mine for that matter. I don't do drugs, i don't drink, i'm definitely not a party girl or a social slut.

I'm just an ordinary girl who happens to prefer outdoor stuff rather than staying at home be the typical "gadis melayu ". I love sports, i love hang out with my friends, i love adventures, i love being independent, i love challenges, i love travelling. I don't like ask people for help, i'd do anything to fix my own problem before seeking help from others coz i don't like the feeling of being owed to someone and i don't like to burden people. Hence, i always keep things to myself, except with people who do understand me. There's nothing wrong with me. Really. I'm doing fine with what i am right now. Tell me that's wrong. 

"Jodoh" 

I truly believe everything that has happened, for a reason. Good or bad, we'll never know. But God has put me in this situation, right here right now. There must be something greater for me to grasp out there. I'm sorry for dragging everyone in this, i really do. I should make it clear since day one. I should make it final since the day i failed to keep my promise. Or even before that. I thought everything will fall into place if we get married. Apparently not. There were so many signs that i've ignored past few years, yet i still keep going. Again, things happen for a reason. We learnt from it, we make ourselves better, we prepare ourselves for the future. When we are fully ready. Maybe not now, maybe later. 

And with that, i'm going to take control of my own life now. I'll make my own decision, i'll bare the consequences, i'll take charge. Please understand that i need to learn from my own mistake, and i need to make my own judgement. I need to learn to be better from MY own experience in life. Not from yours. We live and raised in different generations, it's impossible for me to live by your standard willingly and i know it's hard for you to accept that time changes everything, including the way of my thinking, the way i see life, the way how i should live my life. 

If your concern is me not being religious enough, well we all have been through that situation haven't we? And maybe we're still there. Who knows, except for God. Be close to God, and God will be close to you. That's all that matters. At least for me. Again, my approach may be different or i may not appear / have the true muslimah traits, but i know my stand. I'm not going to sacrifice my believe for anything else. If God wills it. Let me create my own path. Please. Just let me. 

This is For You.

It all happened too fast. Started as a stupid mistake, turned out to be one of the most memorable moments for me. Everything that has happened is unexpected. For you, and for me. For awhile there, i thought i could be more. Apparently not. They won't let me. I'm sorry for dragging you into this. Maybe this is the best for me, as what they said. Maybe i'm just too blind to see, yet. 

Thank you for giving me the chance to know you, the late night deep conversations, ideas, tricks, all the stupid jokes, the useless facts and even brainstorming for the business proposal. Damn. Things were really fast. So much to explore yet so little time given. 

Happiness is not a constant state, there are times you'll be as high as the sky, there are times when you feel like you've been buried deep inside the earth. I've gone through both when im with you. And the journey has to stop. Happiness will come again, i know it will. 

Hoping the best for you, and your future. May all your wish come true, and be good as what you already are. Gonna miss you. 

Thanks, G.

Life at its worst

Do you know how it feels when everything you planned, your goal, your mission, basically your whole life, is going down the hill? It sucks.

I guess God is trying to tell me something. I'm not saying im in a huge major world issue kind of problem, but it's the not so obvious,  the little glitch and maybe for some could even be classified as a first world problem that im going through right now. But it bothers me, alot.

I haven't had enough sleep or rest for months, I have eating disorder,  I have weight issue, the out of nowhere debt issue, moral issue and these are only part of it.

I believe that whatever shits I'm in right now, are basically my "reward" for living life horribly and taking advantage on it.

It is time. Be a better person Naqyah. As a whole. Stop destroying your life.

The Morning

(Playlist : The morning by The weekend)

As day goes by, the crappier it feels. 

Looking back to the old self, trying to remember and grasp even a glimpse of that feeling to be at peace, innocent-self. How the hell did i get here?

Maybe this is the test. Maybe this is me. Just the true me. Of who i am supposed to end up to be. 

When your whole life principles and stands being challenged, only then you'd know whether you're a strong or weak person inside. 

Even the harsh, firm, strong and sometimes hard-headed attitude potrayed can't save us from being the most easily influenced, most fragile and most hopelessly hopeful for something better to happen when you are internally weak. 

You keep looking for that eternal happiness from others when it has been trapped, locked inside you all along. 

You are the creator of your own happiness. Stop looking for more and start appreciating life as it is. 

Be thankful. Lend a hand. Make the best out of everything, good or bad. Bad wouldn't exist if you don't let it be in your dictionary.  

BE SMART, Naqyah. 

Self reflection

Behave, Naqyah. 

Dear temptation, please go away. 

Protect me God.

I'm too weak.

12/12/12 : New Chapter, Career Wise. :)

Assalamualaikum, heyho, lets go!

How's everybody doing? Good? cool...I'm doing good too! In fact, Im doing great! Alhamdulillah. :)

As you can see, from my previous post (the one where i'm babbling about sports club and stuff?) I've talked about having a family day with my previous company in January next year. Turned out, I didn't get the chance to be part of it, since i've moved to other company mid of this month. Well, 12/12/12 to be exact. What a pretty date to start a pretty good job with a very good working environment, and good people too! :)

God actually answered my prayer, (which also i wrote somewhere in my previous post about my almost new year resolution, to be better - career wise) and I Thank You for that. Looking at the current situation and the environment I'm in, I've made up my mind, to stay in this company for good. I want to build my career here. I want to learn as much as i could, to get involve with them, and to be part of them. I think i have a pretty good future if I stay and work my way through the ladder, FAIRLY.(not the sucking-up-to-the-boss kinda way) Which brings me to my next resolution, to achieve at least Ass. Manager by 27-28. (which is 3-4 years from now) Insya'Allah. I'm aware that i have a lot to learn. A LOT. I know i can do it. I'll go for training, ask for guidance from my superior (malu bertanya sesat jalan, tak gitu? huehue) and find alternatives that could help me move forward in my career as per planned.

Well, i think that's it for now. I can't say much yet since i've just started. But i LOOOOVE the environment, the work place to be precise. There's a gym (which i can go anytime and it's free! :D), and  a foosball table at our 'lepak' place inside the office (ok, i hate that i'm not good playing this shit, but i'll practice sampai jd pro!) and there's also a sky garden (since my office is on the 48th Floor, you can just imagine how breathtaking the scenery is from up there right? Especially at night.) which also part of the 'lepak' place. Nice huh? (Sorry la batak sket sbb tpt lame xde mende2 camtu, haahaaa lameeee i know. T.T)  If i have the time, i'll upload the pic of the place later aite! :)  Till then, have a good year ahead peeps!

Ouh and not to forget, Merry Christmas and Happy New year! GOODBYE 2012, WILLKOMMEN 2013! ;D

How to be a good Muslim

Quoted from Ustaz Yusuf Estes, a converted catholic preacher from Texas;

"To be a good Muslim, you need to have these five (5) things: 

• Surrender 
• Submission
• Obedience
• Sincere
• Piece

Surrender: By praying and worshiping Him, Submission: By accepting whatever fate bestowed upon you,  Obedience: To abide to his commandment, Sincere: To give without expecting any return, do things by heart, not for pride.Piece: To be thankful with what you have, good or bad. Be thankful, always. In short, these are the true meaning of ISLAM."

Accept and practice. May all of us will. 

Dreams

In order to ACHIEVE something BIG. You have to ACT BIG.

MY NEW ALMOST-NEW-YEAR RESOLUTION

1) To complete CIA

2) To improve myself, career-wise.

3) To earn more

4) To behave

5) Which all come down to this, to make my parents proud. Insya-Allah :)

Dare to complain only and only when....

Sometimes. we see people complaining about their lives. Not good enough, not free enough, not happy enough, not rich enough, not loved enough. What is there to complaint? The only reason you complain is because you know its your own failure to achieve what's truly meant to be yours. You can do better if you put your mind up to it. If you're still not achieving your goal, it means you haven't give your 100% yet. In life, you're in control of your own fate. Stop procrastinate, stop giving excuses, quit slacking, start making things happen. If you want love, go find it. If you want to be wealthy, work your ass off, grab any opportunities that come and never second thought your choice and never look back. If you think you've made the wrong decision, fix it. Change, improvise, anything that you can do under your power to make things go as the way you want it. Don't just sit and do nothing while complaining your life is not exciting enough, not happy enough, not good enough. Start making changes, start putting rules in your life, stick to your principles. With discipline as your guard, I can assure you, everything is achievable. Remember this. YOU ARE YOUR OWN BOSS. 

C'mon naqyah. you're better than this. Start looking.

Something to think about...

Islam adalah iman , ilmu dan amal .
Iman adalah persoalan aqidah atau ketuhanan.
Ilmu dan amal pula, ada yang berbentuk lahiriah dan ada yang berbentuk
batiniah atau rohaniah.

Bertolak dari aqidah, maka timbullah keperluan untuk beribadah sama
ada ibadah lahir mahupun ibadah batin. Setelah Tuhan dikenali,
dicintai dan ditakuti, maka akan terdoronglah kita untuk menyembah dan
mengagungkan- Nya dan untuk mengabdikan diri kepada-Nya. Akan
terdoronglah kita untuk melaksanakan segala suruhan dan meninggalkan
segala larangan-Nya. Akan terdoronglah kita untuk patuh dan taat
kepada-Nya. Akan terdoronglah kita untuk berjuang dan berkorban
kerana-Nya.

Ilmu lahiriah ialah ilmu feqah yang bersangkut paut dengan amalan
lahir. Ilmu batiniah atau rohaniah pula ialah ilmu tasawuf yang
bersangkut paut dengan amalan hati. Amalan sama ada yang lahir atau
yang batin mestilah didorong oleh aqidah. Ia mesti didorong oleh rasa
cinta dan takut kepada Allah . Barulah amalan itu akan bermakna dan
akan mempunyai erti dan maksud yang betul. Amalan adalah jalan, kaedah
atau cara untuk membukti dan merealisasikan rasa cinta dan rasa takut
kita kepada Allah.

Bila Allah sudah dikenali, barulah kita betul-betul boleh
mempraktikkan atau melaksanakan agama. Barulah Allah itu menjadi
matlamat dan tumpuan ibadah dan pengabdian kita. Barulah amalan kita
itu ada tempat tujunya. Barulah akan terjalin dan tercetus hubungan
antara hamba dengan Tuhannya. Dalam beragama, kenal Allah itu perkara
pokok yang mesti didahulukan. Selepas itu baru timbul soal amalan. Ini
sesuai dengan hadis yang bermaksud : "Awal-awal agama mengenal Allah"

Amalan agama yang tidak didahului oleh rasa cinta dan rasa takut
kepada Allah sudah tentu tidak akan membawa kita kepada-Nya. Sudah
pasti ia didorong oleh perkara-perkara dan kerana-kerana yang lain.
Mungkin kerana mahukan Syurga. Mungkin kerana takutkan Neraka. Mungkin
kerana mahukan pahala dan fadhilat. Walaupun tujuan-tujuan ini tidak
salah kerana ianya sebahagian dari janji-janji Tuhan, tetapi maqamnya
terlalu rendah. Justeru itu hasil dan manfaat dari ibadah seperti ini
juga adalah rendah.

Ibadah yang didorong oleh perkara-perkara seperti ini, walaupun
banyak, tidak akan dapat mengubah akhlak dan peribadi kita. Ia tidak
akan menimbulkan rasa bertuhan dan rasa kehambaan di dalam hati kita.
Kerana itu, ia tidak akan mampu menyuburkan sifat-sifat mahmudah dan
membakar sifat-sifat mazmumah yang bersarang di hati kita. Ini kerana
Tuhan tidak dilibatkan dan tidak dijadikan matlamat dalam ibadah kita.
Kalau Tuhan tidak dilibatkan, maka hati akan kurang berperanan kerana
hati itu wakil Tuhan. Ibadah yang tidak ada Tuhan ini sudah tentu
tidak ada rohnya, tidak ada rasanya dan tidak ada khusyuknya. Bila
hati tidak berperanan, maka tidak akan ada penghayatan dan penjiwaan
dalam ibadah.

Tambahan pada itu ibadah kerana hendakkan Syurga, pahala dan fadhilat
dan kerana takutkan Neraka ini ada risikonya. Disebabkan Tuhan dan
hati tidak dilibatkan sama dalam ibadah seperti ini, maka ibadah ini
tidak ada kekuatannya. Lama kelamaan, ia akan dicelahi dengan rasa
bosan dan jemu. Sukar hendak diistiqamahkan. Ia juga mudah dihinggapi
penyakit riyak, ujub dan sum'ah. Ini semua akan memusnahkan pahala
ibadah. Lebih-lebih lagilah kalau tujuan dan niat ibadah itu adalah
untuk dipuji, untuk disanjung, untuk mendapat nama dan glamour, untuk
menunjuk-nunjuk dan kerana sebab-sebab lain yang berbentuk duniawi.
Sudah tentulah ia tidak ada nilai apa-apa. Malahan ibadah seperti ini
akan Allah lemparkan semula ke muka pengamalnya berserta dengan
laknat-Nya sekali. Ibadah seperti ini tidak akan mendekatkan seseorang
itu dengan Allah. Malahan dia akan bertambah jauh dari Allah. Dia
berbuat maksiat dan kemungkaran dalam ibadahnya. Lagi banyak dia
beribadah, lagi dia rasa sombong, angkuh, riyak, ujub, rasa diri
mulia, rasa diri baik dan sebagainya. Lagi banyak dia beribadah, lagi
dia pandang orang lain hina, jahat dan tidak berguna.

Beramal dalam Islam ada tertibnya. Ada urutan dan susunannya. Ada
"progression" nya dari satu tahap ke tahap yang lebih tinggi. Ia
bermula dengan Syariat , kemudian dengan Tariqat , diikuti pula dengan
hakikat dan diakhiri dengan Makrifat .

Syariat.
Ini adalah ilmu sama ada ilmu bagi amalan, lahir (feqah) atau ilmu
bagi amalan hati (tasawuf). Ini adalah langkah pertama dalam tertib
beramal. Ia melibatkan ilmu tentang peraturan, hukum-hakam, halal
haram, sah batal dan sebagainya. Ilmu perlu dalam beramal. Tanpa ilmu,
kita tidak tahu macam mana hendak beramal mengikut cara yang Tuhan
mahu. Kalaupun kita sudah cinta dan takut dengan Tuhan dan kita
terdorong untuk menyembah-Nya, kita tidak boleh berbuat demikian ikut
sesuka hati kita atau ikut cara yang kita cipta sendiri. Tuhan tidak
terima, kita mesti ikut cara yang ditetapkan oleh Islam, kita mesti
belajar. Amalan tanpa ilmu itu tertolak. Ilmu atau syariat ini ibarat
biji benih.

Tariqat .
Ini adalah peringkat menghidupkan ilmu menjadi amalan sama ada amalan
lahir mahupun amalan hati secara istiqamah dan bersungguh-sungguh.
Ilmu (syariat) yang ada perlu dilaksanakan. Ini dinamakan juga tariqat
wajib dan ia tidak sama maksudnya dengan tariqat sunat yang
mengandungi wirid-wirid dan zikir-zikir yang menjadi amalan sesetengah
pengamal-pengamal sufi. Tariqat ini ibarat kita menanam biji benih
tadi (syariat) hingga ia bercambah, tumbuh dan menjadi sebatang pokok
yang bercabang dan berdaun.

Hakikat.
Hakikat adalah buah. Selepas kita ada syariat, kemudian kita amalkan
syariat itu hingga ia naik ke peringkat tariqat, yakni ia menjadi
sebatang pokok yang bercabang dan berdaun, maka kalau cukup
syarat-syaratnya maka pokok itu akan menghasilkan buah. Buah tariqat
adalah akhlak dan peningkatan peringkat nafsu atau pencapaian
maqam-maqam mahmudah. Boleh jadi ia menghasilkan maqam sabar , maqam
redha , maqam tawakkal , maqam tawadhuk , maqam syukur dan
berbagai-bagai maqam lagi. Boleh jadi hanya terhasil satu maqam sahaja
(sebiji buah sahaja) atau boleh jadi akan terhasil beberapa maqam yang
berbeza dari satu pokok yang sama. Hakikat adalah perubahan jiwa atau
perubahan peringkat nafsu hasil dari syariat dan tariqat yang dibuat
dengan faham dan dihayati.

Makrifat .
Ini adalah hasil dari hakikat, iaitu hal-hal hakikat yang dapat
dirasai secara istiqamah. Ia adalah satu tahap kemajuan rohaniah yang
tertinggi hingga dapat benar-benar mengenal Allah dan
rahsia-rahsia- Nya. Orang yang sudah sampai ke tahap ini digelar Al
Arifbillah .

Kalau kita lihat dengan teliti, tertib dalam amalan ini bermula dari
yang lahir dan berakhir dengan yang batin. Syariat dan tariqat itu
terletak dalam kawasan lahir. Hakikat dan makrifat pula menjangkau ke
dalam hati dan rohani. Kita juga dapat lihat bahawa peringkat syariat
dan tariqat adalah peringkat-peringkat yang agak mudah dicapai kerana
ia hanya melibatkan usaha lahir.

Adapted from an article found in Halaqah.net

Let me get to know YOU better dear God. May all of us will. Amin

My Bad~

BAD QYQY! BAD QYQY! 

Stick to your goddamn principle please!  

Job Satisfaction

Tell me, what does job satisfaction mean to you? Is it the pay? environment? benefit? power? or simply the satisfaction of getting one very challenging task done?

This, my friend is how i define Job Satisfaction and what is my level of satisfaction currently at this new place.

Job satisfaction for me is when i get to go back on time, with daily task completed before 6, ad-hoc job is not as much as planned audit presented at the beginning of the year, and all audit planned executed and completed right on schedule. When i get to wake up everyday without complaining about going to work, facing my superior, dealing with other people nuisance. when i have a comfortable work environment, nosy colleague-free, gossip-free, scandal-free. Solely occupied by working people with working intention. no funny business whatsoever. Only Work.

But, it'll give more satisfaction if  I've been given with challenging task. Provided that guidance is there, and able to complete the task and learn something new out of it and applicable for future tasks. But nothing beats the mother of all satisfaction when u have all the above added with power and handsome reward. Damn. If only life's that easy.

Luckily for me, this new place, i have less, waay less task compare to my previous job. Too relax i may say. There's no challenge or anything. I know it's not beneficial for me in terms of knowledge-searching or experience-gaining. But it gives me less stress, which is good and not to forget its ridiculously-near-my-house location. *10-15 minutes driving-in-jam distance* Who doesn't want that? 

Sometimes it gets boring when u don't have anything to do and do not know what to do and just play "looking busy" mode. Speak of the devil. Kerja baru sampai. huahuahuahua.. ok gtg people!